I had an interesting call with my Grandmother Sally yesterday. 

She was sharing with me all of her feelings about growing old, being lonely and losing her youthful spirit.

She had so much advice for me:

Make sure you enjoy your youth now because pretty soon you won’t be able to get around like you used to. Your skin gets old and wrinkly like crumpled up leather and simple things become almost impossible… like picking up a 20 lb turkey at the grocery store and not being able to get it into the cart. 

I assured her that I wouldn’t be picking up a turkey anytime soon, but that I could understand her dilemma.

Since this is not my experience now and not what I am creating, it was important for me to stay in Compassion, stay in my heart and send her bright healing light and love.

All the talk about getting old and slowly dying left me more determined to be a master creator, to push the limits with managing my energy and my surroundings.  

Knowing that every thought, emotion and experience contributes to our reality gives us the power to choose. 

How do you want to experience life… full of regret, gloom and doom?

or

Filled with the Divine light that creates through the Universal Laws?

My Grandmother has always been pretty hip to the times… she once flew to the Philippines to have energy healers pull out huge tumors from her body. She even has pictures of the necrotic tissue that they so nonchalantly extricated from her ovaries. 

So it’s not that she doesn’t believe in a higher way of living. It is that she has given up her devotion and commitment to being an offering in the World.  For some reason, she has chosen to go it alone… she doesn’t want to impose on anyone for help or support. She doesn’t want to ask for assistance and yet, she keeps talking about how difficult it is being all alone to do it alone.

I know that her entire life was about giving to others. She was a waitress for over 25 yrs. She made the  most amazing holiday dinners and always did it all herself… the shopping, the cooking, the cleaning up.

Grandma never learned how to receive. She is still refusing to open herself to support, even now. Maybe she doesn’t feel worthy, maybe she is afraid to open her heart to love, or maybe she is simply so scared of being hurt that she would suffer rather than take a chance on connecting.

At some point in our lives we will be asked to open to love, to take a chance on love… on connecting with others and pushing through the clouds of separation consciousness so that we can bask in the rays of Divine Unity.

May you have extraordinary strength to take a risk on Love and receive the warmth of the glowing Light of the Universe.

In Oneness,

Christel

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